late night studying

its 1:05AM now and im doing math. trying out late night studying after reading about people studing till 4AM on fb. how do they even achieve that ! im almost dying from loneliness cause there is only me&soo on 987 that i hear. okay, goal is to sleep at arnd 230. go gerald !

“awake?”
“yup, i am”

guilt/fear

im going to batam in around 2 hours time, so dont msg, dont call, unless you want a huge phone bill ! anyway, i had this really weird dream last night, ok not that weird. i dreamt that i was asking this rj friend of mine how much he studied everyday, and he said, “730AM-530PM” everyday. i guess my dreams reflect my fears very well. its close to the end of week 3 and i havent been really productive when everyone out there is mugging their butts off, at least for my classmates! sure, i study almost everyday, but maybe just 3 or 4 hours only? and even so, its distracted every 15min with a walk to the fridge, or a trip to the tv which usually lasts 1hr. its so iritating when you know that what you do is apparently wrong and would leave you guilt-stricken for the whole night, but you just cant stop yourself from doing it. 1 week left, would i be able to redeem myself? im really not sure. and when i flunk BT2 and perhaps, A’s, who can i blame other than myself? there is no doubt studies drive me crazyy.

gee

yay, another photo of kim bum (not kim bun vibhu) ! song said i was acting like a fangirl, and yes i am, at least for now !

anyway, it was a pretty nice day today. out with seow idris and jiaying. really love these girls.

on another issue, im not sure if i was being sensitive or what, but i see a shift in the friendship between us two and its becoming more and more like the very very beginning, and i like it that way ! yay. things are finally going on the right path. (:

1.22AM

im blogging from my iphone now and I really think it’s so convenient and cool! even though the iphone really really really distracts me away from my work with taptap, fmylife, facebook, some ball game, and other more random games, it’s really one phone that I love, being a gameboy, mp3, phone, countdown machine (some app), camera and an entertainer all thrown into one! what a deal isn’t it?

ok anyway, I’m having some gp crash course tomorrow from 10-3pm by the school of thought, the publisher for broader perspective and I ought to be sleeping! ended everything so late cause was talking to priscyyy. talked about two hours about almost everything! from studies, how frustrated I am with physics, to adam lambert having crushes on kris allen and the super hot transformer girl being a guy in the past (!!!) to kim jong (II) and abu sayaf forces to weird CSS seniors to insecure relationships to many other more random stuff like uni, you get what I mean. really don’t think I can find anyone who can stand my uber-short attention span, jumping topics every 5 min, an hearing my incessant random ramblings. I love you, indian! (and for that, I stay strong agreeing to your fellow -(not sure of word choice)- gandhi!)

i am still uncertain whether to talk to you about the insecure feelings i get so often about our friendship.

ahhhh sleepy. zzz.

so sick.

im so BORED/SICK & TIRED with alevel prep. i know that its what i SHOULD do, but somehow, browsing the net and watching tv always take precedence over studying ! rawr. kill me please.

sick.

how can anyone be so ridiculously goodlooking?!?! hahaha, isnt kim bum so cute? i have successfully completed watching my boys over flowers, korean, 25 episodes in 1 week flat ! just couldnt resist rushing straight home after school to watch the series, really been so long since i went so crazy over my drama serials. (: listening fervently to the soundtracks now.

anyway, all these while, my classmates have been pretty sick, started with 1 and 1 by 1 they all became sick with either a cough or a flu. was just laughing at some of the girls that day about how strong i was but when the june hols start, i began to fall sick, cough, flu, they all came. so bad until the people in the mrt tried to avoid me whenever i coughed for fear that i had swine flu. rawr, but i slept the whole day yesterday, so feeling alot better already. on a sidenote, i found it pretty amusing that there’s this friend that is everything im not ! haha. awhile back on fb, i was checking on his profile, and it said “i abhore sweet food” and im like a sucker for anything, anything sweet ! and when i entered msn today, his msn nick was “___ is healthy and fit” when im so sick ! haha ! really random i know, just thought it was kinda interesting.

just some photos in school/school events. includes the rugby match i went, met jo, xin and thas there ! haha, commonwealthians unite. there’s bowen’s and hao’s birthday celebrations, idris and sinlin’s funny h3 expressions, some photos taken with the cam’s special effects and of course, council’s last project, feedback week !

had quite alot of outings in this month. went for SA’s choir concert with my OG(29!!!) to support joshua PERRY cheng, had a labour day outing @ sinlin’s place (awesome tortillas that her mum made and great house.. as usual with the comfy sofas and 24hr aircon. :D) and I attended 2 drama plays in 2 weeks ! 1st was SA’s the love of 3 oranges @ the art house. loved the acting and the place, really enjoyed the 2 hour play with the class, even though none of us was acting ! it was good enough to go support ms kotwani. (: 2nd one was TJ’s paper boats @ TJ to support vibz ! song priscy, stan and me had an awesome lunch at MOF before the play. the acting/singing/dance were really good, was really impressed with all the TJ dama mamas ! (not saying this because its vibz), but i enjoyed it alot as well. many pretty girls to look at and it made me feel like TJ is a nice place to be in again. met up with my sunburst friends last  sat @ swensens, plazasing  ! even though it was only the 5 of us and we are all from different jcs/IP/polys and havent met for half a year already, it still felt very familiar and i love this bunch of people. sunburst love!

on 21st may, i officially stepped down as a councillor, during assembly, before the whole j2 cohort. seems like the day we have all been waiting for so long, to be finally able to do the things we need to do, a.k.a study, and have less commitments, less late nights, less chiong-ing of projects. but i dont know why when the day finally came, i felt nervous and really unwilling to let go, even shedding tears when renee spoke. i think it was a sense of loss, feeling that it might be hard to see the council friends again, even though we’re in the same school due to all our conflicting timetables, and thinking back about the times where we did all the saikang, got scolded and laughed together.. even though there were disagreements, conflicts, quarrels, im really proud to say i joined SA’s council as there are many things we did that many people dont know, and im certain that i have made friends that i know i wouldnt have made if it wasnt for council. and as we all always say, one council, one love.

long entry isnt it?
i cant help feeling inferior when compared against you guys.

boys over flowers

gone all crazy over this korean drama series. watched 15 episodes (each around1hr) in a span of 5 days ! watched 6 today, cause no school tomorrow ! preparation for gp paper on friday. know that is <160 days to A's ! but i cant help it ! really nice, and makes me happy and fuzzy inside. (: really long time since i followed a drama series, and im loving this one ! YI JUUUUNG ! GU JUN PYO !!! i swear i will mug for gp, to my best abilities tomorrow. GO GERALD !

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UPDATEEE.

haha really long time since i last blogged cause i have been so bussyyyyyyyyyyyyy and partly, cause i go on facebook so often that i hardly blog. anyway life has been pretty mono, school is as stressful as ever, and sometimes the stress gets so overwhelming that i just wanna go home and sleep all day. esp for physics ! after my physics teacher told me in front of the whole class that my physics was stressful. cant believed i cried. ok, that was last week. so some updates !

council is love. haha. pictures from our games day (28/3) and commendation (15/4). cant believe that the j1s are officially councillors, and its almost time to step down. even though i used to complain about council so much, i realised that deep deep inside, i actually really like some people and enjoy the saikang we do. commendation was so different being seniors, no stress, no heat, no feelings of fear, just really proud of the j1s that have gone through everything to become official councillors. the lunch was pretty much the same as last year, just less cam-whoring (aloooooooooot less), and alot of crazy moments, mass dancing in blazers?! tau-pok?! hahahaha. went to watch the knowing with some councillors after that. ahhhh, didnt like it cause it was too scary for my liking. and KYAW scared me before the climax that lead me to scream before everyone else, UNGLAM ! hahaha. anyway, official stepping down is 28/5.

met up friends quite abit to catch up ! went to Holland V today with vibz and song to chill, catch up and mug ! we went to coffee bean and haagen daaz, nice seeing the boys again. had a great dinner and dessert, nothing extraordinary, but really warm. haha. went to fish&co, glasshouse on priscy’s birthday to celebrate ! haha nice night out cause really long since I last saw stan and al and i liked the atmosphere ! hope the indian girl liked her birthday gift. X) then on one particular day, mr chong decided to treat the welfare committee to dinner for our work in friendship week ! we ate seoul garden at taka, really sweet of him and also really nice to just dinner with people that I have worked with. (:

and how can i not mention my class, the people i face every single day, the people who make me laugh laugh and laugh and the people who i watch so many movies with. hahaha. we watched confessions of a shoppaholic and 17 again together ! forced the guys to watch with us in both movies, watched 17 again last friday, really funny ! lovelove zac efron, so HOT AND CUTE ! i swear ! haha. just some photos of sports day, in chem lab (smelly gloves and where ben tried to be funny, poured “ethanol” on himself cause he thought it was so cooling, but found out it was ethanal instead when his hands turned red T_____T). in class where our tables are so messy and where ben tries to draw on benny when he’s sleeping, and in SA’s band concert where some of us went to support jiaying,idris and bay ! (met kaiting there also).

ooo. its 1am. tired, i initially wrote captions for each photo under each photo on picasa, but i dont know why they are gone ! argh. anyway, think it’ll be a long time before the next update and im contemplating whether to shut down this blog? should I, or should I not? ah..

ok just before i sleep, hahahaha, love these 2 ! amazing looks and amazing voice. adam is so cuuuuuuuute. (i dont care if he’s gay, hahaha)

i love long holidays.

its especially nice to receive a sms from someone i havent heard for so long, giving a word of encouragement. thanks meng. (:

 havent  really done a proper update about my life, and i have so many photos to post ! cross country, sports day, random class photos, outings. shall do that another day. just a short update for now ! i loveeeeeeeeeee last week. only had 3 days of school, thursday was sports day and we had holiday from friday saturday sunday. shiok shiok. studied a lil bit and went out to study on saturday. (: you are really a great teacher, thanks !

have you ever seen earphones like that?! was totally shocked when i heard from him that he still uses these earphones. lol.

studying together seems to make studying more bearable, shall plan some day out with the class girls too, i miss my AMK library !

i wished tomorrow wasnt a mondayyyyyyyyyyyy, lessons till 6 cause of math remedial, RAWR. >:(